hmmm.
these few days have been flying off quite fast..
lots of things to do, and my muscles are filled to the brim with lactic
acid because of the tough training.

reading someone's blog about annoying guys
really makes me think back about the past.
seriously dislike these type of people ttm...
they think that they are such a big catch,
you're not good enough for them
and they point out this and that flaw of yours
but in the end all no link and then you're like suddenly left out in the cold
don't know what the hell happened or how it happened.
just like a car hitting you on a normal day to school.
no words can describe how strongly i feel against these type of people.


i think maybe they will wake up if they felt the same kind of pain we feel.
!$%^&*(
:/but in reality, they will never ever be able to experience that pain.
sucks to be true. SUCKS. (after like 2 years of crap i have to bear because strangely
i have extremely good memory for this area of my life)
"if only he understood how painful it is"
"if only he knows how strongly i feel"

thinking like this didn't help me at all, but made it worse lol.
so i think, time won't heal much,
but it helps you cope better with the pain.
this is my conclusion :)
the best way to me is: just freakin ignore that undeserving sob,
carry on with your life, do the best you can, and step by step
you'll be soon thinking "why the heck was i so dumb"
"what actually was so darn good about that person"
not saying i'm some guru or what,
but that is how i coped.
2 years and it hasn't really gone off my mind completely,
i'm still trying. now i have much more important things to tend to
than all these things that are already out of my control no matter
how bad i want to fix it(not that i want to but ya).